Wed
Jan
21
3:59 a.m. The past 24 hours have been very uneventful, yet astonishing. I talked to Cody all day, made me entirely happy. He is one of the most amazing people I have ever met, in my life. Just some of the things he says//does. Makes my stomach do summersalts. I want to feel this way for a while. He’s so cute, like when he’s really tired and on the phone. Heh it’s adorable. Harlie’s here, we’re getting music. I’m half asleep right now, so hopefully this somewhat makes since. Obama was swarn in today, a moment in history. I’m anticipating what the next 365 days of my life will bring. So far, 2009 has been a great year, and I am, for once in my life, completely happy with my life. I want it to stay this way. I’m so thankful for my family, friends, and Codyyy. I’m nodding off at the computer, so that hence that it is time for bed. Goodnight children, or Goodmorning. Depending on when you read this.
Sun
Jan
18
11:08 p.m. Today started out bad. This morning at sunday school, I was informed that my youth group isn’t going to Fuge. Made me extremely upset. Got home after church, hung out with mom most of the day. Bridget came over, hung out with her for a while. Layed around all day basically. Went to Cookeville at around 9 to get Paige from the movies. ITS 11:11, I wished :) Okay so anywayy, my phone died in Cookeville, I got back home with like 12 messages. I’ve texted a lot more today. I’ve realized I don’t usually type what’s going through my mind. I kind of wish I would. Maybe it would let some steam out, I need to vent. I can’t seem to type any of my thoughts though. I wish I could lose this feeling of needing someone. It kills me. For once, I’m gonna be independant. I don’t need anyone but myself. I have so much guilt right now, it’s ripping at my insides, I absolutely hate it.
Sat
Jan
17
4:11 p.m. My life is so bizzare. I cheered last night, boys lost in overtime. That automatically put me in a pissy mood. Bridget and I went to Love’s, I had some chicken nuggets! We drove around Cookeville a while, then headed to Monterey. Josh and Justin walked from MHS to Burger King, in 6 degree weather, so we picked them up there. They’re absolute idiots. They were so cold. So the four of us rode around Monterey for like 45 minutes, took them to Justin’s, then Bridget took me home. Got on here, surprise surprise. I swear my life is already planned out. I want to delete my Myspace, to try to get me to stop spending so much time on the computer. But that would be pointless, and I would just have to make another one. And lose 700+ friends. I need a life, basically. I really like Codyyy, ah. I can’t really get him off my mind. It’s crazy. He’s miiiine. Not technically, haha but yeah. He is. I need to get ready, for the game. I wish I had something interesting to write about? Agh, idk. I’ll be at the game tonight, maybe something’ll happen there. I HOPE SO.
Fri
Jan
16
3:17 p.m. Today was bad. Last night was bad. I have not had a good two days. I don’t really know how to describe it on here, which is why I haven’t written. I think too much, it kills me. I jump to conclusions and my hopes get up, then I’m let down. I get hurt way too much because of that. Starting like now— I’m not going to expect anything. If it happens, it happens. And if it doesn’t happen, I wont be dissapointed. Someone put me in a good mood, or at least a better mood, please? I cheer in two hours. I get to wear a short skirt, under armour, and white nike’s while screaming “go cats!” till my voice is gone. That should make my night a whole lot better. Or not.
Thu
Jan
15
I didn’t write yesterday. Oops. I’m too bust to spill my guts now. I’ll write more tonight maybe. Adios
Tue
Jan
13
9:59 p.m. Today = nothing special. Woke up, after 4 hours of sleep. Showered, got ready. Went to school, got on the bus. Field trip to TPAC. Slept through the Illiad(sp?). Ate lunch on the bus haha. Toured the state library. Went home. Talked to Cody, finally! Cody, if you read this.. you seriously need your phone back. I’m dying (+ feel better, please). Went to the game, cheered. Sugar dropped. I dont think it’s ever dropped that bad. I’m still shaking. Tomorow will be better.
Mon
Jan
12
6:46 p.m. I’ve been spending a lot of time on msn lately. Heh it’s kind of weird. Today consisted of waking up, with five hours of sleep. Showering, eating breakfast and getting ready. Going to school. Seeing the same people, walking down the same hallways. Opening the same locker and listening to the same teachers. It occured to me today that my life is planned ahead for me. And I don’t like it. I need something different and new, yeah? I’m home alone and my head hurts. Phone has only vibrated like ten times all day. Depressinggg. Secret Life comes on in like five minutes! I have a game tomorow. Mmm yay. I wish he would get on msn. On a scale of 1-10, today has been a 4. Eh bye
Sun
Jan
11
4:27 p.m. I have had all day to write, but nothing to say. I feel like everything I write is so generic and chiche. I try to be original. I sat around the house all day long. My brain was on off mode it seemed. I was in a daze, again. Slept through church. I hate it when I do that. I feel guilty and it puts me in a gloomy mood all day. I read a chapter or two in And Then There Were None. It’s a good book, I really like it. My phone has been vibrating constantly all day. I love having someone to talk to:) It’s definately helped with my mood today. So if you’ve texted me today; thank youuu very much. Days like these make me want to go out and do something. I haven’t all weekend. Besides the game. Ehh I’m rambling. I have nothing else to say. Maybe tomorow will be better.
Sat
Jan
10
2:30 p.m. Whew, long day//night yesterday. I posted right before I left for practice. So around 6:30ish. Went to school, in a daze. Anticipating 10:45. Needles definately are not my strong point. Went to the doctor, talked them out of blood work. They diagnosed me with Hypoglycemia. Pretty much what I was expecting. Mom and I went to Uffelman to eat lunch with Lexi. I haven’t been to Uffelman Elementary to eat lunch since I was a student there; 4th grade. Wow. I miss being that innocent, ya know? Not caring about the clothes people wear, the color skin they have. Just wanting someone to play tag with. I ended up back at school when lunch started. Lunch is normally my favorite part of the day. Sitting//standing in the hall talking to my buddies, its lovely. School ended, said byebye to my boyfriend (sadface goes here) and Bridget took me to my house. Got my uniform on, ate some subway, and got on the bussss. The whole way there Katlin, Amelia, Bridget, and I talked about next summer. We’re going to Spain, Morocco, etc etc with Kimbrough. I’m excitedddddd. The boys won their game, go cats! When we got to Mcdonalds, I seriously had the funniest conversation of my life. Justin, Josh, Bridget and I laughed the whole time. They put salt in my Sprite when I went to the bathroom, which ended up getting spit all over Josh’s food bag. Rode home, got to the school at around 11:30. Hung out at Shell till midnight, went home. One of the best nights I’ve had in a while.
